Today, went for my monthly check up .. took blood test , bought medicine..as usual.. then went to thompson cc, heees , i sign up as a member there.. and used their study room.. when i wanted to start my work, i received a call from my doctor ... i am told that my blood report isnt good ... i have to prevent cutting myself ,because if i bleed , i will loose a lot of my blood due to the medicine i took ...after hearing that...i am afraid ..dont know why but i am scared ...
To further explain .. i previously have blood colting problem ..hence one of my medicine is called "waferine" its suppose to make my blood thin so as to prevent blood colt again ... and Vitamin K will make the medicine useless.. hence i have to control or even stop my intake on food that contain Vitamin K .. which means , unlike normal healthy human being, i have to cut down or even stop my intake of fruits and vege ....
sometimes, i have been asking myself ...why cant i be normal healthy person ... wat if i do not have this life long illness ...i will be enjoying the sun , playing outdoor activities on the open water which i love .. cycling in the park during the noon ... sun tanning on the beach by the sea ... eating and enjoying much more fruits and vege without having to worry about over eating it ... enjoying food that i am not allowed to eat .. like herbal soup , herbal chicken , bak ku tae, steam boat, sashimi .... but after awhile , i stopped thinking .. cos the more i think, the more negetive its gonna be...
this is life , many thing happen , many things changes ... perhaps i thought of all those is because ... in yr 2008 , dring nov period, i signed up for a jap class in thompson CC , and on the nov 30 , i already have diddiculty walking up the stairs .. even sitting down , i left leg hurts... my left leg is badly swollen since a few days ago .... that day after my lesson , my parents drove me home after hearing me complain about the swell ...even lying down on my bed having my leg straight, it hurts so much that i have been loosing sleep ... that night , i was again admitted to the hospital .. i remember , my dad drove to to the nearest hospital at upper thompson ... i had difficulty getting down the car ... immidiately i did many scans ... and so on ... and i remember, the next day morning, my mum had a flight to catch , as she is going on a holiday trip with her frens.. my mum actually didnt wan to go , she was very worried about me .. but my dad told her.." wats the point of u staying here? u r not the doctor ... so jus go and enjoy ur trip , sharon will be fine here, we will accompany her .. dont worry , jus have fun with ur frens..she will be fine"
whenever i thought of that, i will cry ..because one thing that i dont like is to let others worry about me.. affecting them because of me ...and so the month in the hospital ... its when i am told that i have that illness which till now has no cure, only medicine to prevent any infections ... i have to admit that month, i felt the love and care from everyone ... my brother who normally shout at me at home ..but he really did make a very nice company when i am staying there.. he is jus like a elder brother who i could count on ... and my frens , my sis and her frens who entertain me .. not forgetting all the nurses there ... that period of time is like a very new chapter in my life ...
yr 2009 , the april , i went into ite bishan ... ,met a group of frens ...they r jus like my support... everyone of them is jus so important to me .. though i often cause problems, which i am so sorry about it .... i m really missing the times we hang out ... below are some photos, i wonder and hope that time can go back ..and i promise i will hold on to every friendship ...
in my life now ... my family and frens r the most important things in my life ...someone ever told me ... life is jus like a journey ... and i am the bus driver ... everything /and everyone that is on the bus is very important in the journey , they r the ones that bring smile and laughter in the journey ... and i need to treasure them carefully .. cos if by small mistakes, they may jus alight at one of the stop and will never be back ....in life there will be many lesson to be learn ...
manny things changes... now , falling in love is never the topic anymore .. all i am looking forward is studies , frens and family .... though many more frns and buddies photos are not here.. but be assure that all and everyone of u , my frens even since pri sch, will always be kept inside my heart.. frens , u all are as important as my family ... and will never be forgotten ...
Today, went for my monthly check up .. took blood test , bought medicine..as usual.. then went to thompson cc, heees , i sign up as a member there.. and used their study room.. when i wanted to start my work, i received a call from my doctor ... i am told that my blood report isnt good ... i have to prevent cutting myself ,because if i bleed , i will loose a lot of my blood due to the medicine i took ...after hearing that...i am afraid ..dont know why but i am scared ...
To further explain .. i previously have blood colting problem ..hence one of my medicine is called "waferine" its suppose to make my blood thin so as to prevent blood colt again ... and Vitamin K will make the medicine useless.. hence i have to control or even stop my intake on food that contain Vitamin K .. which means , unlike normal healthy human being, i have to cut down or even stop my intake of fruits and vege ....
sometimes, i have been asking myself ...why cant i be normal healthy person ... wat if i do not have this life long illness ...i will be enjoying the sun , playing outdoor activities on the open water which i love .. cycling in the park during the noon ... sun tanning on the beach by the sea ... eating and enjoying much more fruits and vege without having to worry about over eating it ... enjoying food that i am not allowed to eat .. like herbal soup , herbal chicken , bak ku tae, steam boat, sashimi .... but after awhile , i stopped thinking .. cos the more i think, the more negetive its gonna be...
this is life , many thing happen , many things changes ... perhaps i thought of all those is because ... in yr 2008 , dring nov period, i signed up for a jap class in thompson CC , and on the nov 30 , i already have diddiculty walking up the stairs .. even sitting down , i left leg hurts... my left leg is badly swollen since a few days ago .... that day after my lesson , my parents drove me home after hearing me complain about the swell ...even lying down on my bed having my leg straight, it hurts so much that i have been loosing sleep ... that night , i was again admitted to the hospital .. i remember , my dad drove to to the nearest hospital at upper thompson ... i had difficulty getting down the car ... immidiately i did many scans ... and so on ... and i remember, the next day morning, my mum had a flight to catch , as she is going on a holiday trip with her frens.. my mum actually didnt wan to go , she was very worried about me .. but my dad told her.." wats the point of u staying here? u r not the doctor ... so jus go and enjoy ur trip , sharon will be fine here, we will accompany her .. dont worry , jus have fun with ur frens..she will be fine"
whenever i thought of that, i will cry ..because one thing that i dont like is to let others worry about me.. affecting them because of me ...and so the month in the hospital ... its when i am told that i have that illness which till now has no cure, only medicine to prevent any infections ... i have to admit that month, i felt the love and care from everyone ... my brother who normally shout at me at home ..but he really did make a very nice company when i am staying there.. he is jus like a elder brother who i could count on ... and my frens , my sis and her frens who entertain me .. not forgetting all the nurses there ... that period of time is like a very new chapter in my life ...
yr 2009 , the april , i went into ite bishan ... ,met a group of frens ...they r jus like my support... everyone of them is jus so important to me .. though i often cause problems, which i am so sorry about it .... i m really missing the times we hang out ... below are some photos, i wonder and hope that time can go back ..and i promise i will hold on to every friendship ...
in my life now ... my family and frens r the most important things in my life ...someone ever told me ... life is jus like a journey ... and i am the bus driver ... everything /and everyone that is on the bus is very important in the journey , they r the ones that bring smile and laughter in the journey ... and i need to treasure them carefully .. cos if by small mistakes, they may jus alight at one of the stop and will never be back ....in life there will be many lesson to be learn ...
manny things changes... now , falling in love is never the topic anymore .. all i am looking forward is studies , frens and family .... though many more frns and buddies photos are not here.. but be assure that all and everyone of u , my frens even since pri sch, will always be kept inside my heart.. frens , u all are as important as my family ... and will never be forgotten ...
