Sharon

2010-11-13T07:36:00.001-08:00

Today, went for my monthly check up .. took blood test , bought medicine..as usual.. then went to thompson cc, heees , i sign up as a member there.. and used their study room.. when i wanted to start my work, i received a call from my doctor ... i am told that my blood report isnt good ... i have to prevent cutting myself ,because if i bleed , i will loose a lot of my blood due to the medicine i took ...after hearing that...i am afraid ..dont know why but i am scared ...

To further explain .. i previously have blood colting problem ..hence one of my medicine is called "waferine" its suppose to make my blood thin so as to prevent blood colt again ... and Vitamin K will make the medicine useless.. hence i have to control or even stop my intake on food that contain Vitamin K .. which means , unlike normal healthy human being, i have to cut down or even stop my intake of fruits and vege ....

sometimes, i have been asking myself ...why cant i be normal healthy person ... wat if i do not have this life long illness ...i will be enjoying the sun , playing outdoor activities on the open water which i love .. cycling in the park during the noon ... sun tanning on the beach by the sea ... eating and enjoying much more fruits and vege without having to worry about over eating it ... enjoying food that i am not allowed to eat .. like herbal soup , herbal chicken , bak ku tae, steam boat, sashimi .... but after awhile , i stopped thinking .. cos the more i think, the more negetive its gonna be...

this is life , many thing happen , many things changes ... perhaps i thought of all those is because ... in yr 2008 , dring nov period, i signed up for a jap class in thompson CC , and on the nov 30 , i already have diddiculty walking up the stairs .. even sitting down , i left leg hurts... my left leg is badly swollen since a few days ago .... that day after my lesson , my parents drove me home after hearing me complain about the swell ...even lying down on my bed having my leg straight, it hurts so much that i have been loosing sleep ... that night , i was again admitted to the hospital .. i remember , my dad drove to to the nearest hospital at upper thompson ... i had difficulty getting down the car ... immidiately i did many scans ... and so on ... and i remember, the next day morning, my mum had a flight to catch , as she is going on a holiday trip with her frens.. my mum actually didnt wan to go , she was very worried about me .. but my dad told her.." wats the point of u staying here? u r not the doctor ... so jus go and enjoy ur trip , sharon will be fine here, we will accompany her .. dont worry , jus have fun with ur frens..she will be fine"

whenever i thought of that, i will cry ..because one thing that i dont like is to let others worry about me.. affecting them because of me ...and so the month in the hospital ... its when i am told that i have that illness which till now has no cure, only medicine to prevent any infections ... i have to admit that month, i felt the love and care from everyone ... my brother who normally shout at me at home ..but he really did make a very nice company when i am staying there.. he is jus like a elder brother who i could count on ... and my frens , my sis and her frens who entertain me .. not forgetting all the nurses there ... that period of time is like a very new chapter in my life ...

yr 2009 , the april , i went into ite bishan ... ,met a group of frens ...they r jus like my support... everyone of them is jus so important to me .. though i often cause problems, which i am so sorry about it .... i m really missing the times we hang out ... below are some photos, i wonder and hope that time can go back ..and i promise i will hold on to every friendship ...

in my life now ... my family and frens r the most important things in my life ...someone ever told me ... life is jus like a journey ... and i am the bus driver ... everything /and everyone that is on the bus is very important in the journey , they r the ones that bring smile and laughter in the journey ... and i need to treasure them carefully .. cos if by small mistakes, they may jus alight at one of the stop and will never be back ....in life there will be many lesson to be learn ...

manny things changes... now , falling in love is never the topic anymore .. all i am looking forward is studies , frens and family .... though many more frns and buddies photos are not here.. but be assure that all and everyone of u , my frens even since pri sch, will always be kept inside my heart.. frens , u all are as important as my family ... and will never be forgotten ...

2010-10-01T07:21:00.000-07:00

wao ... theres so many things i need to update here ... haha ... so many things changed in a short short time ... wonder how much tears , smiles and laughter there was through the changes ... but all i could say is that ... after the fall, i manage to stand up , and decided to move on , treating all this as a heavy leasson learn in life ... more meaningful , more happy times are gonna come ... hahass ... lets just start with the most recent happy moments .... first up ... my dearest mei mei 's birthday celebration ...

2010-01-29T10:27:00.000-08:00

This week is an emo week~~ lol...got exams, projects..ZZzz to add on..so so many things happen at home..things changes..o my, i got the feeling that my worst nightmare in the past is coming back..i fear that i may jus break down again..thats why, whenever i know i cant take it anymore, i will go somewhere far away from home..sit there to think through..listening to songs, allowing my tears out..i am very thankful to all my frens who is always around me and also specially to these two person (u knw who u r^^) who are the ones who hear me out most of the time..lending me their ears..they are my BB buddy & my bestie..thx lotsss.. thx for letting me know that i wasnt alone.. so sorry if i had add on to ur worries yea.. dont worry o time will soon mend my wounds..i dont wish to see u guys sad too..so stay happy yea..all my buddies and frens meant alot to me=)) CHEERS~~glad that CA is over..lastly THANK YOU my dearest sister..from young , instead of being close to my mum or dad, i am much much closer to my sister who is 3 years older..she plays the role as my parents, a sister and also a friend!!shes the only one i could talk to at home without having to worry about anything, although at times we may have some misunderstandings,but after awhile,everything will be ok..talking about siblings,although my younger brother can ruin my mood easily, but recalling back to the days when i fell very sick in the hospital and the times where he protects me (from the jane in my house,whenever she go crazy) he is like playing a role of an elder brother to me.. THX lottss, o yea, congrats to u that u had gotten into a JC of ur choice..heess~~o yea, Happy Birthday to all those whose birthday falls in Jan o..sorry if i had forgotten to wish u all personally...heessss..[life goes on, no matter how many unhappy things that come into our way..SMILESS] ending here..

2010-01-26T08:33:00.000-08:00

wonder how to describe today...hmmmm..anyway in full, today we are to do our WFB report..zz write till hand pain..and the room is so so cold ..Brrrr.~ left sch only around 5 plus-6pm.. had jap food with sinyi, judy, jorie and alvin , in the food court..after which...sinyi alvin and judy went to study..as for me, took a bus back home..o my...the bus super pack>.< ..help my mum and so on..zzz then took a bath..as i am suppose to meet a fren at 6.45pm..but i didnt keep a look out for time..zzz after bathe , came out and found that i have 3 miss calls..zzzzz called back ,then i came to realise i am late, my poor fren is outside the condo le...zzzz i am really very sorry fren make u wait so long..his gf is around in bishan, thats why he reached early=) we decided to go TP, went in KFC to study, cos by right today is acc tuition, due to stac CA come first ..so tuition is cancelled..heeess...thxx ah fren..for guiding me through the questions that i wasnt sure about..we also chiong some difficult questions..weee i had my all time favourite..(pop-corn chicken, and the frappe(coffee)) hahazz too long didnt have that le..left there at 9.45pm..sian cos its closing at 10pm..no choice, we sat outside the star-bucks to carry on with the work..after which..when we both got the correct ans..we dropped the pen..hahazz finally..time check round 10.30 plus-11 pm le..thx o fren for driving me back^^ and thx lots for guiding me in the stacs questions...i went back home, and he went to meet gf le =D , this fren of mine is all along like an elder brother to me..he takes care of everyone around him..nice =D, in this sch, came to know many frenss..love them lotss..i am really grateful to have them around in my life...sinyi,judy,jorie,jacq,kavi.(girls clique)...the guys clique, my BB buddy..and everyone i know ..i here-by deeply apologize at times for the wrong things i may have done and the missunderstandings that is created(which is not cleared even up to today) that hurt u guys, i dont mean it, really...sorry !! without u guys, guess my life in sch will be terrible ba.. soon first yr will end, and next yr we may not be in the same class again..but no matter wat, u all will never be forgotten by me, never ^^, tmr is Stacs and Banking CA!! and IAC is up next on thursday,All the very best !! tk care lotss..

2010-01-24T07:48:00.000-08:00

Waooo..its been soooo long since i blog??!! hahazz..time flys..now is already jan 24 2010 le..haiss many many things happen..to be short..my life starts to change..wonder if i could take the change..mainly is due to my family matters..anyway i am learning to face it all by myself..dont wanna bother my frens anymore!! but i am glad to have them around..bringiing my attention to other things..enjoy a lot with them =D thx lots to be part of my life!! very soon, the old emo sharon will be totally gone..and the happy side of me will be out !! hehe..went to sing K with my frens, once was on a sun, with judy,sinyi, alvin and Judy's frens..it was a very fun day..enjoying the music..and the other time was friday...went with, paul,jacq,alvin,sinyi,jorie and judy..as usual,we went katong to first have my lunch, previously,i had the laksa there, and also because my gestric wasnt very good, hence i had the fish porriage instead..the food there was super yummy!! hahazz...then sang a few songs..o my serously i cant sing..or should i say i sound terrible..hahaz >.<, wheras sinyi have the perfect voice to sing, she sing so well..CLAPP!! =D...then we went to The Cathey to watch the tooth fairy!! waaa..very nice show..and went home by train with paul and sinyi..nice talking to them..sadly jorie didnt join us, cos she had other plans with her frens le..but anyway i really enjoy the day out with them.. moving on...saturday ,my parents and bro went malaysia le....round 6 plus, sinyi and alvin came my house to do their WFB, but as usual half the time we are playing ..lol..fun though since i am so lonely at home..they bought in laughter=D thx ppl...as for today, sadly i cant join them in the morning ..cos i have house work to do..i did mostly by myself cos sis is studying=D i am used to it le..hahazz then went to carry on to study...round 6 plus i receive a call from alvin saying that he and sinyi are coming over to my place to play a game of badminton..was shocked to hear that but also since i need a break hence i agreed..lol poor alvin , his ankle was injured but he play as though nothing happen..so fun playing with sinyi too =))after that we went 7 elven to grab something..o my, wonder how come the hot water for cup noodles went error..lol end up i went back home and got some hot water for alvin's noodles..the assistent in the 7 elevn is very kind to allow him to get a new pack =D sinyi got herself ice cream and i got coffee..sat downstairs..after that sinyi and alvin went back le=D ...packed day?? hahazz..looking forward to go school tmr!Thx lotss to come over..at least i wont have time to turn emo..=D

2009-12-05T09:36:00.000-08:00

Friday,4-12-09

for the past few days had been very tiring, cos gotto study,study and study..hahaz who ask me to last min hug buddah leg..lol but at least i did my best..today is the big big day!! o my scary..o my last min read the book again and again..then met wt at j8..then took train to CCK ...on the way ,watched you tube show...super nice..hehe..o my i was so scared and worried if i could pass,cos for the mock,i manage to pass by a mark..zzzz when reach CCK, still got time, so went mac relax a bit..had drink...wa lau, i went there so many times to drink cuppuccino, and it wasn't design so nicely, and today for a change i tried the ice coffee,wt had cuppuccino, and his, as u can see,well designed~~~ Zzzzz haizz..saw any difference with the same cup , the one below is before he added sugar, the one above,got a hole in the middle..hahazz lol i nothing better to do..

hahazz, ^^ we both managed to pass...yay.. sadly it was raining..wt's dad came to pick us up,went to eat , then droped me at the MRT=) thx a lot ^^ very kind and sweet of them really ^^ happy day, but very tired~~

Saturday,05-12-09
in the morning went for another blood test alone..cos the previous report got something wrong ..haixx..nvm, after that i treat myself ,blueberry tart!!! my beloved=))

then after which went to walk walk alone,and took some pics^^

a huge one=))

from far it looks like that..

Chocolate tree=D

Inside Taka=))

outside ION..from far

a nearer look ..a even closer look..saw the opening?? this is from the inside of the tree=)) nice right^^

2009-12-03T04:22:00.000-08:00

yesterday , as usual went to study with alastair at yishun..zz, tiring ,but cos today,theres exam for WFB..haha glad that it was ok ..this morning,as usual,had breakfast with judy,sinyi and alvin..hehe,after paper, went to have lunch with Alvin,judy and sinyi..shared buddy-meal with sinyi, yummy~~then hang around with lishi and sinyi^^
have lots of fun chating=))

2009-12-02T04:19:00.000-08:00

2009-12-02T04:06:00.000-08:00

=)) love baby eeyore & Me-to-you bears=)
some pics i found frm the net^^

2009-12-01T09:57:00.000-08:00

Smile=))

zzz...still as ugly as always>.<

home ,preparing for hand-made popiah!!hehe ,my all time favourite^^

library meal=))chicken

food court, popiah!!

Met Alastair jus now at yishun,

to study for tmr exam^^,
some pics i took..lol..

nothing better to do..

who ask him to say me >.<

the mess

my favourite rose^^

haizz, its been a tiring week..cos last thurs was my accounting CA1,

because of that exam, i work super super hard,knowing that i am slow.. after tuition on Wed, carry on with study at seng kang, mac with Alastair=))wa my first time there, is next to the indoor swimming pool, super nice place..luckily, for acc, everything was ok,hope i can get good grades..then was holiday..

thinking back

,ever since that day, till today, its been 6 days le..

i broke the record..haixx, jus now i talked to a fren, very long no chat le, he asked me these: "why mus u always hide ur real feelings, you wanted so much to call him, but why dont u jus call!!"

but perhaps i got this feeling that he didnt wish me to call either ba, maybe i was jus too irritating..which i admit, hence is better this way ba.. indeed, my sudden 'change' do no difference ba..i am jus too stupid, always having that fear to speak up ..

2009-11-26T05:05:00.000-08:00

2009-11-25T10:06:00.000-08:00

these days had been raining badly
super cold~~ sinyi,alastair and all who r sick, get well soon o^^,all the best for CA1 accounting o
haiss, realise something, which make me very sad today...haixx should up date soon..too tired

2009-11-17T07:59:00.000-08:00

i am glad that u had found that someone special,though i wasnt the one, but promise me that u will be happy everyday.. if this is really wat u have decided, then i guess there is no point for me to confess..if this is wat u wan, i here by

祝福你们,我决定 ,放弃,
然后默默地离开.. ='(

how i wished i was the one..

perhaps i am jus a nobody to u ba..

2009-11-16T05:19:00.000-08:00

hmm didnt really slept well last night, due to having terrible flu..Zzzzz..lesson was pretty ok,break time, though i was dead hungry,but didnt know why i jus dont feel like having a proper meal,end up eating fruits..after sch rush home to shower then off i go ..when i reach cck,wanted to have a cup cake in mac,but realise that we were running late,so had only a cup of coffee..as usual,went bbdc, this time was held in the lab,did the theory practice,zzzzz failed 2 practice with 70 questions each..haiz at least wt pass one..lol..was worried hence may be coming back for another round of practice.....

2009-11-13T07:15:00.000-08:00

thinking back,its been a year, last year's today,changed my life forever...once a person who love the sun, now have to eventually hide from it..my beloved sport, swimming, gotto change from noon to night.. i cant eat my favourite food, sashimi, because its raw, and may cause infection...and i cant drink wine, which was my favourite too='(....many things changed, for life, i got to take many many tablets every day..once the girl with a smile everyday, had become a girl who often tear...the girl who once is ok to be alone, now i hate to be left out,i felt so scared if i am left alone..even the guy i had fall in love with,i wasnt brave enough to confess, and now ended up running away whenever theres a chance to say, im jus so so scared to face everything..wat a coward...at times i hated myself..=(( my life is shorter then anyone else..and its oso the reason why i stand up again whenever i feel like giving up...theres many many things for me to do before i die, so i cant give up !!=)) this goes to everyone else too, life is control by us, we must learn to make full use of it yea!!=)) JIA YOU !!

2009-11-13T03:04:00.000-08:00

wooo, wat a cold day...hahazz some more our lessons today were all in the lab, poor me, i sat right under the air-con. Brrrr...lesson were fun..then i suddenly decided , to challege myself, from today,12 pm later, some of the things round me will change..perhaps these changes would make myself happier ba..life is short,especially me,(some of u who knows my conditions),i will never knw what will happen to me the next min...so wats the point of worrying very min or sad or emo..should smile more..hehehesss=)))))Christmas is round the corner, i had missed the whole dec last yr, this yr, i make sure i will fully enjoy the season of giving..stopping here..ppl enjoy the weekends o !!!

2009-11-12T06:43:00.000-08:00

才知道有些感受,

我和他谁都不曾说出口,

我们之间隐藏了什么,

除了我自己没人懂,

可是你,你怎么说,

你知道后是不是从此避开我

,多希望我们不曾相识过,

我们都是最好的朋友,

谁会有勇气去开口,

不在乎不再难过,

我们还有好大好大的借口喔,

故事的最后,

我们都不曾失去过什么.

the above are some parts of the song sang by,宇恒 - 依然是朋友. speaking the fact, some phrases of this song really reflects how i am feeling deep down^^

2009-11-12T06:09:00.000-08:00

hmmm, lets conclude this week, tue..terrible. why? because, after 11 am, rushed back home to get change & met jorie,went to do our SVE project..round 3 pm,from china town went all the way back to bishan,got home to change again..then off i go for my CCA,badminton was fun, but sadly half way through i was a little not feeling well hence didnt really concentrate playing,poor fren who played with me..haizz can tell hes a little sick of how lousy i was ,sorry o..hmm nvm i left at 5.40pm, think he is much happier to play with ppl who are much much better in badminton ba, i am just too lousy to play with??!! anyway,i managed to get change and tidy up,left sch by 6, ran to MRT,took circle line to purple line then took train to koven,6.15pm.sorry o teacher that i am late..after everything, i was dead tired and was really not feeling well,was so so hungry without having proper lunch and didnt had dinner, but when i am home,all i did was to shower and sleep..slight fever, bad headache..wasnt that terrible enough??

Wed,o my i was jus too sick to wake up for sch today, i guess its been very long since i felt so so sick that i allow myself to skip sch and rest at home ba...thx o fren,i remembered i told u to wake me up today, i forgot to sms u when i decided not to attend school, so sorry to trouble u to call,end up the ans u got from me is that i am not going sch....my headache was really killing me..thx for the concern ,frens=)) by noon i felt much better..met teacher at 6 at koven...o yea, thx o fren for the treat^^, so sweet of u...got home round 10pm...

Thurs, heesss,after 10 am, went back home to change and then met sinyi, judy,and alvin,kavita and jacq,watched movie at the cathey..then went bugis walk walk..had a great time with them, i enjoy a lot..=)))round 4, took a long ride on train all the way to Chua Chu Kang, lot 1, its still early, went mac, had a cup cake, since i am so hungry..waited not long after,wt came,ealier then i thought,we then went arcade,as usual he played the fighting game,while i sat there to watch him play,actually part of the time, i was looking at another guy playing the car racing game, waaaa, so shuai, drive so nicely..hahazz.. sadly he didnt win=((, poor wt, neither did he win this time..took a bus to BBDC had the second round of lesson, indeed i made the right choice, going lesson with a fren,cos it wont be bored, at least got ppl pei ..hahazz thx lots fren..o and this time the teacher is much more funny and interesting..after lesson, booked for practice, Evaluation and the test in one goal...o my better pass the first time..hehezz jia you o me and my fren=))) anyway thx o for peiing me wait for bus and made u missed 2 of ur bus..a nice fren indeed!

2009-11-09T07:24:00.000-08:00

today, monday blue...then after school, rush back home to shower, worrying if my fren have an umbrella,as she wasn't feeling well..then met wt at lot 1..with his fren having mac...then went to play arcade,hahaz i manage in disturb wt in his fighting game..lol and was so happy that he lost..cos we r going to be late for lesson...after that took a bus to BBDC,waaa just nice on time..then went into the class room, a lot of ppl wor..sat with him..hahaz he was like talking and talking..but hes really very nice, as he actually do not have to take the lesson and go straight to take his test, but because of me , he actually pei me..lol, thx lots o fren!! sry o make u spent money for the lesson..

2009-11-02T22:07:00.001-08:00

past few days,if u notice...i had made some slight changes in my life...hey"something u said, really made me think a lot.i am hurt badly as well=(.." some of u should knw who i am reffering to ba..anyways, life goes on right??^^ so, perhaps i will get use to the changes soon...i need time... sad wor, by right today is my badminton, a CCA i really looked forward to..but for some reasons, i cant attend, sad..but looking at the positive side, i can make this chance as a good excuse for me to run away from certain things ba..perhaps^^ will update soon..=))

2009-10-27T07:37:00.000-07:00

heres some pics=)) too long since i post photos=)),these are some of them, taken at different day,time,place =)))

^_^
sea-food hor fan, sis's=)) wanton noodle at cj(with sister for dinner)

school wanton noodle

yong tau fu (alone)

delifrance blueberry tart^_^ at Gleneagles after my blood test

yoshinoya^_^

pizza hut-salad^^ with classmates

me,sinyi

2009-10-23T07:51:00.000-07:00

my fren said:"broken hearts are often cause by unspoken words" once i read this, i kind of totally understand her feeling..., in a case where the girl falls for a guy, its very hard for them to confess,as they may not want to end up crying due to hearing the answer that they dont wanna hear ..there are more chances for her to run away from speaking her hearts out to the guy she love..ended up keeping the feelings she have for him, in her heart...these causes broken heart..she may either end up giving up or silently watching 'his' back day by day....

2009-10-22T05:08:00.000-07:00

been thinking for a very long time...now its time i settle down with only studies in my mind...to some of my frens who are concern, i admit that for the past few days and weeks,i had been struggling to let go..now i had made up my mind...i cant waste any time le ..let it go totally le=))... a brand new day ahead^^ jia you o..thanks to my bffs o..thx for the concern... my life is full of laughters and smiles around u all^^...

2009-10-17T03:42:00.000-07:00

here comes to the end of the first week..here are some photos=))

trying on new clothes^^

long time since i have taken photo with
aaron le=))

jus like an art peice

[my heart really hurts whenever i notice that in ur eyes is always her ]

[its easy to say that i would let go, but its really hard to do it..]

2009-10-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

today's the second day of school after a month holiday!! pretty happy on the outside, yet at times,on the inside i felt terrible over certain things which some of u should know why...but i'm always trying very hard to maintain at least a smile when facing such situation..not that i don wanna let go, is that its really difficult to... anyways,ended sch early^^. YAY... haha, went out to eat with frens=) , had wanton noodles, yummy~ then went to walk around in city hall area^^, after which sinyi and i went back to bishan.. met lishi and frens, slack in j8..then home sweet home by 7pm.haiss tired wor ~~got a bad feeling about my health now days..scary... i must really learn to let it go, or i think another way is to make myself go blind in order not to see certain things which my heart will ache a lot...

-tired to pretend that i am alright & wear a smile, at times,which the truth is that, i'm not...

2009-10-11T05:59:00.000-07:00

wee,times passes real fast,sorry o sy,unable to be there during ur birthday celebration..=(,as i'm in malaysia. but at least we met out on the thurs^^.we had fun, really, hope u like the small gift i had prepared!! hahazz, tmr sch reopen le!!! the past 3 weeks, i had thought a lot, learn a lot and its about time i totally let go !! yuppz indeed i am happier and more cheerful le!!=)) looking forward. SMILES!!

2009-10-06T19:18:00.000-07:00

haha..i am back from the two weeks stay in malaysia =)). life there is abit different .morning,had my breakfast (half boiled egg & bread), or mee.then evening,have a game of badminton with my coursin,or maybe riding a bike around^^ very fun wor.At night ,we light up many paper lantens outside the house,wats more crazy this time, is that,instead of a lanten each in everyones hands,we have round 20 lantens on a long pole, and off we go in the dark street=)) but one of my dear coursin,he will start to run with the pole whenever we pass by a friend's house, poor me ,gotta chase him,cos i am holding the another end of the pole.hahazz.anyway i had some photos=))

2009-09-18T09:03:00.000-07:00

long time no update le wor..hahaz ^^ time check, now its 12am.by right off work at 9pm but due to some customers who came at that time, to purchase tickets to catch the movie which will be showing in 30 mins time..hahazzz..so no choice,only manage to close my counter at round 9 plus -10. weee i haven broken my record for being careful,although today i had asked for help from my manager many times to refund tickets. XP...after all i love this job, though others may complain about the pay,but i am pretty alright cos this is my first job . i am grateful enough that the company hired me =D. made many frens and learned many many things.hahaz. one more good thing is that i wont have to worry about finding excuse to stay away from my mum.^^ anyways gotta go=)) will update soon.

cant get myself to forget u~~

2009-09-04T10:04:00.000-07:00

[At times i am wondering, if our story is coming to an end, or is it just the starting of a new chapter?? haizz confusing ma..heart hurts a lot, but what can i do? i am waiting to see wat game is fate trying to play with me. no matter how the ending will turn out to be, i will just force a smile out and accept it..]=)

hey ppl,exam is next week!! All the best o^^, keeping myself busy will stop myself from thinking too much, or even to feel the pain... take care o !! nites, soon more pictures are coming up..

2009-08-27T09:03:00.000-07:00

Had OA test jus now, hmm i tried my best le, but haiz didnt manage to do section B &C, 30 marks gone..hahaz,anyway b4 the paper my wounds suddenly hurt so badly that i cant stand it.hahas think its a few times, i broke down into tears in sch.anyway, to my dear frens, sinyi, judy,jorie,etc..thanks for always being there,make me laugh whenever i am emo ..=)) luv to be round u guys^^, hahaz went seng kang with judy & Junlun,crazy la me, cos i no where to go..hahaz waa that place is so so nice, then was a little blur b4 i gotten on the bus,thankz o Alastair ,and also, Judy for peiing us wait for bus.i sat in Mac to study, then took a bus back, sooo tired that i slept through,luckly didnt over stop.hahaz.these day went all the way to Lot 1, then go back home, if not its seng kang..hahaz i got nothing better to do .lol.anyway CA coming,finale yr de, dont play play!! hehes.all the best.gotto slp^^ nites

2009-08-22T07:17:00.000-07:00

went to Gleneagles for my follow-up, this time round i went alone~~, everything was fine, luckly no blood test, as i am full of blue-blacks,sure will affect the result de, i didnt let doc know, my doc actually asked me why i look very moody,hmm i hav no idea why but perhaps i jus cant control my emotions well enough ba..hahaz after that i hav no where to go,hence walked around orchard..took a train to air-port, study there=),till 7 plus..anyway,thx o wei ting for willing to lend me ur ears for that short little time,at least i am feeling much better now.thx hahax..

I am covered with wounds all over,each wound reminds me of wat happened yesterday, and tears jus cant stop rolling down..i jus hope i could forget but i can't, the scar is already there.yesterday i felt so hopeless and really hoping to call someone for help,police? or maybe a fren who could listen, but i found no one,everyone is jus so busy..anyway jus to let YOU know, although u hurt me badly , both mentally and physically, u will still get my full respect, thx for the concern through sms today,i am somehow touched, but this is not the first time u treating me like that, and i see no point for u to say sorry after wat u had actually done to me.i am not angry ,never will ,jus that i am very sad of wat u did to me, even if i didnt do anything wrong.

2009-08-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

on thursday, rushed BE till supper "early" 4 am plus then completed everything..hahazz ennded up only took an hour plus of slp then headed to sch le..hope this time round wont kanna reject ~.~ ..Friday,watched movie with sinyi,judy,lishi. ORPHAN is nice after all, although its bloody at some parts and i kanna shocked many times >.< hees..

2009-08-16T07:54:00.000-07:00

enough of those posts with lots of words le ba..hahaz finally can upload some pics=)

Home-made=), fruits,vege salad^^ a close up^^ acc book full of drawings=P my poor friend's shoes my favourite mee^^

yummy^^

2009-08-15T02:58:00.000-07:00

i decided today to be a out-alone-day,hahaz went to airport walk walk then study there,a very nice place to be at, especially when my mind is in a big mess.hahaz. then went to city hall there,for a walk, many happy moments that i had b4 ,flowed back into my mind..hoping that everything can be back like the past..anyways,jus now my sis had booked the tickets for the movie,where got ghost , its been a long time since the whole family is watching movie together le..looking forward though.hahaz, o yea, i had joined a new CCA, badminton, since thats one of the sport that i can play ^^..and its a very good reason for me to go home late, as for some of u , knows that i dont really like to go home...btw,if i can qualify for the trip oversea, i am really looking forward for that day to come,so as to stop myself frm thinking of all those unhappy things ,at least for that short period of time .. lols haha..yupps hoping for tuesday to come, BADMINTON hehes^^..kks i go rest first before dinner.sleepy~

2009-08-14T02:33:00.000-07:00

hahaz. yesterday,hang round in sch till 7 plus,then walk to prime market there with aaron,actually i wanna walk home from there,but my dear fren insist me to take a bus back-.- hahaz but thanks for the concern,i was home saftly. kkz,today met weiting for breakfast at mac,yummy.. after sch rushed home,get changed then went back to sch for dragon boat event,was the helper, but ended up both zi wei & i wanna take part in the boat..soo we were all ready to get into the boat, but zi wei had motion sickness,hence ended up i am all by myself. hahaz was supper fun, didnt really regret playing,jus that after the event, i dont hav dry clothes to change,so nvm lo, no choice, thanks o zi wei for lending me her slippers=)), had a longgg walk , chated with a girl,(sorry o i dont really knw how to spell her name),then wei ting, aaron and her went back home le,left Yew hui,zi wei,Azhim & i went to have our dinner.then Yew hui went off first, after we send zi wei home,me and Azhim then took a train back..hahaz fun day i mus say. anyway i was so so happy that my parents actually allowed on something which i thought they won't.now mus really pray hard i can pass the teacher part.really really hope everything can go the way i wish it will.^^

2009-08-13T04:49:00.000-07:00

Had glass-painting at hobby-craft yesterday.^^ love hands- on so so so much. mama drove me back.=) thx ..hais tired, both mentally & physically..starting to not like going home le..Anyways,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAVEN!!, thx for always being there^^. Lets meet out soon..

shall end here.=)

13.08.09~ smiles

2009-08-12T16:38:00.000-07:00

Time flys, things changes. Thats life ba rite..learning to adapt..hahazz yesterday was funn, end sch early.^^

As time flys, i came to realise that i had sank even deeper into something..too deep that i am geting more and more confuse.hahazz.Last night i had this dream that its like reminding and warning me that i cant let history to repeat itself again.need time to sort everything out.. I am forcing myself to overcome and get over it asap.but i need time..so ppl, i may be a little different i guess..yea everything will soon be ok de..and i guess this is my weakness ba..i dont wan these kind of feelings to hurt me any longer. hahaz..EMO?? hoping that all these will come to an end soon, so i will be back to past me ba. kkz will update soon. byes

labels: I hate this feeling..12.08.09

2009-08-09T09:57:00.001-07:00

back home,10 plus jus now..hahazz parents & bro r still in malaysia..went Beatrice de house to celebrate her dad's & her birthday..funn..haizz got sashimi,my favourite..but sadly i cant eat raw food ='( . take many photos..lazy upload..will upload soon =), took bus back home with Whye keat,jolene,aaron,zongjin,zhiying,john & joline ^^,me and john was the first to alight..chated with john on the way back,cos he stay in the condo next to my hse,so i walked through his condo..then home sweet home..heard my fren went to watch the fire-works..i wanna go tooooo...but i missed it ..sadness.nvm theres always next year. btw going out tmr to study^^, although HE kept repeatly appearing in my head these few days,i am trying real hard to ignore..yupps focus on study^^ hehezz.. btw i had no choice hence i told a lie.. saw a fren who had these nick on his msn that says"They won't care how much you know until they know how much you care" sound very meaningful rite=))..ending here=) good nite

Birthday Girl,busy opening the presents

me,Aaron

Zongjin & me

me & Zyann
Zhi ying,me,zongjin

09.08.09 smiles

2009-08-07T11:38:00.000-07:00

woooss,last night,home only round 10 plus,was studying in J8 food court with Alvin & Yew hui..thx o Mr Lin!! , i finally manage to understand about P&L.lol>.<

Hais tired,zz fri morning..met Weiting for breakfast then went to sch le..After school,met my sec sch class mates,long time no see them le ^^ walked around to find present for Beatrice =). then round 2.30, met Eddie,Jieshi,Jiemin & Jerry^^ at AMK Hub, gotten the tickets for the 5.10 show.. went to the near-by pool centre to play snooker(hope i spell correctly),.watched GI Joe^^ very nice show..& Eddie is supper funny , acting like a donno wat in the lift, made us laugh till we can roll on the floor la..haha..played pool again after movie ,happen to see Yan zhi..haha met Yvonne & Sheng Cao..went to punggol to have its famous Nasi lemak,supper supper yummy^^ full marks, hahazz eat till very full wor,then head to play arcade till 12 then leave..haha sooo late le so took a cab back..thx so so much to pei me wait for cab ppl=)long day huh..enjoy a lot a lot..Laughing a lot with lots of entertainment,nice knowing many frens from IQC=)) i had decided to leave everything else aside..only focusing on studies!!^^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY PeiHiang!! ending here..nites
G.I JOE

Yummy^^ back view

Eddie, Jie shi
Eddie,shengcao,yvonne,me,jieshi,jiemin,jerry

07.08.09 smiles

2009-08-06T19:13:00.000-07:00

Time flys..haha tmr is fri le..weee no lesson tmr, celebrating national day. yupps but sad la, end sch at 12 still,not eariler.Sat & sun will be a packed day for me. My best fren Beatrice's birthday , we will be going to her hse to celebrate ..Though her birthday only falls next week, but she will celebrate her birthday with her dad whose birthday fall on sun..^^ looking forward..haha Recalling back here are some of photos with my secondary school frens=))miss u all !!!

Beatrice & me

Beatrice, me, zyann

06.08.09 smiles

2009-08-05T12:44:00.000-07:00

Today is my CCA, hobby craft.haha i love hands-on.. We were given a sheet of plastic ,draw on it then we r to bake the plastic. soon it will turn into a small , hard key- chain..weeee love mine..i did two, one is mine and another one, is for my buddy, cos he these days 'suffering' at home,yea so made one for him le..these is a gift for a buddy o.. nothing else..lol looking forward for my next session of hobby- craft. wonder wat we will do the next lesson.sad o,cos this CCA only held a few times a month de,mainly is only when there are courses then we will go..end~

Sinyi,Lishi,me,judy

Done by me =) (friendsip key-chain for me & my buddy)

All our work,sad only can do 2 a person

05.08.09 smiles

2009-08-04T03:11:00.000-07:00

this week seems so boring, for no reason, i feel like something was missing,but really cant find an ans for this question.haha,ahh..tuesday, whole day in air-con room~~ coldd...zz played some games in C4B, funny wor.. then the teacher ask what will we react if ur fren is 40 mins late when u meet him/her out. My first ans was:" i think to me, 40 mns is nothing,cos i had waited for 1 of my fren for like 4 hours plus..my very first time waited for someone so long wor ^^. anyway, lesson was interesting somehow.. haha . Take care ppl..^^ ending here le ..byess

04.08.09 smiles

2009-08-03T09:24:00.000-07:00

Having fun taking photos >.<
Looking at my phone..^^
sinyi,sharon

me,judy,sinyi,lishi

me, jacq,sinyi,judy

me, jacq

me,sinyi,judy

sinyi, me

2009-08-02T06:11:00.000-07:00

=) by rite today i not allowed to go out de, but due to some reasons, i dont wanna care about the rules anymore^^. Went out round 11 am plus today..no where to go..then decided to go Yew hui house.haha hmm her house very far wor..wat was fun..reached lot 1 shopping mall round 1 plus ,2 ..walk around then met Yew hui in library..chated awhile.. then went her house le. actually today my mood not very good due to some problems i faced in my house and also other things.studies??. haha anyway her house is really very nice=)) so were her family members..i finally feel a very strong family bonding and family love which i cant find in my family. her mum, her sis and her sis's husband is really friendly and very nice..help her with her BE..till 8 plus..zz haha then had dinner with her family..the dinner is really yummy..thanks to her mum.. envy her ,having such interesting and loving family=)anyways, i reached home round 10 plus.. rushed BE ..cos help my fren do part of it..arhhh tireddd... ending here~~now 3 plus lezz

01.08.09 smiles.

thinking back...

2009-08-01T01:45:00.000-07:00

haizz, time check now its 1.45am.I cant slp ,chat with YH on the phone just now,then dont know wats the reason,all the unhappy memories of mine came back into my mind ..Hai, at times i will always ask the same question,who am i...ppl may ask why i am always running away from home..actually for those of my closer friends,they will knw that i had these problem with my mum since young..i was slaped by my mum that day(i was only in primary sch),after i came back from sch.i remembered that day i was fooled and being bullied in school,hece i was pulling a long face when eating...my mum slaped me and scolded me asking who am i to pull a long face infront of her.,.she warned me to smile whenever i am home ,dont ever bring the problems back home....its a day i will never forget as from that day on, i hardly talk to my parents about things happened in schol.Not like my other friends who always hold as very strong bounds with their parents,i lost my communication with them since then.And because of these whenever i have unhappy things happen that day in school, i will hold back my tears till i am alone in my room...Yea i know i sound emo, but dont know..i just thought of the past and i wanna typed it out,and i feel better..
1.08.09 smiles=)

The birth of my blog

2009-07-31T07:56:00.000-07:00

Yo ppl =),todays the birthday of my blog!!.Thanks o Sinyi for helping me so much in the creation of this blog...Hmm today end school early, round 12 plus=D. Went for a walk with Sinyi in J8, around 1 plus ,met K,A,WT & YH in school then went for lunch at SUMO HOUSE!!^^(AMK) Yummy~~,the food there were delicious =P.Eat till supper full sia,hahaz so we decided to walk around in AMK HUB,then went in Mac ,chat till 5 plus,then went home le.Haizz, wat a boring day rite!but at least i did enjoy hanging out with the grp=).Today one of my classmate under-went a small operation behide his ear.Was worried though,but was really glad that everything went smoothly=D. Have a good rest buddy!!..Yup,shall end here for today,bye ppl=)Will be posting some older posts^^

31.7.09 -Smiles=)

2009-07-23T05:53:00.000-07:00

Today, my mind is packed very many things. Hai.. anyway i went vivo city with Yew hui , Zi wei & Eddie=).. Had ice cream...zzz i will never share ice cream with Zi wei anymore >.<. Ha ha cos she ate very little,and the rest i have to finish=.= Soooo full. haha Round at night we walked to somewhere with a good view of the sea^^ sat there with Yew Hui, while Eddie is dating with Zi wei..haha Yup finally that was a good time for me to think through many things =). Had fun.. reached home only round 12 am..zzz Tmr still got sch . haha . at least i enjoy myself a lot. ^^Here are some photos..

Yew hui,me

23.07.09 smiles

2009-07-17T02:00:00.000-07:00

The movie OBSESSED
Me & Yew hui=)

2009-07-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

Today,end lesson early =D..yays..Went back home to change,then headed back to sch,was a little crazy,cos i meeting Weiting they all only at 1pm plus..but i reached sch at 12.30 pm le..Zzz nothing to do so i pei my frens walked to J8 ,again ^^,after they went home,on the way back to school saw Mr Lim, Zac,Alvin & Rickmond,chat with them while walking=D.. Met Weiting,Yewhui,zi wei & Kimberly(sry if i spell wrongly), but only weiting, yewhui, ziwei & i went to watch the movie in The Cathey. Watched Obsessed^^, supper nice. Poor weiting,sat in between me and zi wei, wacked by the oth of us..haha he should knw the reason. After the movie, we went around orchard to walk walk ^^. Had great fun chating with them =). Last stop was taka, grab some food as we were so hungry.. Then home sweet home le.. Tired~ think by now ,my mum had reached hong gong with her frens le~~ freedom.><

good nite~ ending here.

17.07.09 smiles

2009-07-15T06:07:00.000-07:00

Today, we nothing to do,took some photos. haha =) visited the sch retail store=)). here are some photos we took.

15.07.09 smiles

2009-07-12T00:48:00.000-07:00

Today ,by right it was Zac,Rickmond & Junlun going out to do their research,but end up cos Zac last min got something important to attend,and so i helped them instead.Met Junlun & Rickmond outside the Orchard MRT round 5 pm plus..Haha..My first time seeing Rickmond in outside clothes,not bad ma. LOL, and the 3 of us all wore black and white although we didnt discuss on wat to wear.haha~~ We went to many hotels round that area,ask them for Dinner & Dance details for the project(Alastair's grp).some of the managers who attended to us were friendly and provide more then enough details, but some, -.- they were very unfriendly,or maybe thinking because we are only doing a project hence refuses to give us more details..Haizz .. Anyway,we went many places,took some photos, only 3 of us ,so most of the time ,i am the photographer..

2009-07-12T00:18:00.000-07:00

2009-06-19T23:18:00.000-07:00

Haizz,tired day ..Morning as usual, went for my appointment at Mt.E. Then slp~~ till round 3 plus,did my revision on accounting..boring! I WANT SCHOOL TO START!!!!! I then happen to read JL blog, saw he was out alone then i called to chat, then decided to meet him at marina.s. since i am so bored. reached there at 5 pm plus le,went to walk ..from one place to another..on the way we chat about our life and so on,its sad though after hearing his past..but wat can i do ..i can do nothing but to listen =)..Everyone may look brave ,but u will be shock when they talk about the things behide their brave look.. Last stop was at clark quay,enjoy the night view there,its nice ^^...took a bus back to J8 ,walked around had our dinner ..Then home sweet home~~although was a short outing.at least i have a different impression of this friend of mine. JL,he may look fierce,but behide that brave look,actually he is a soft & kind hearted person=)) Dont judge the book by its cover!!^^ kkz shall end here.bye~

19.06.09 smiles

2009-06-18T22:36:00.000-07:00

On the 16 june,we had out class bonding in sentosa=D..hahaz early that morning,met Alastair,John. took the train to vivo city,on the way there met Junlun . Reached vivo round 10 am plus,had long john for breakfast=D..yummy..Then saw a group of our class mates ,me,Alastair,Junlun,Kelvin & John help to carry the foods and took the mono-rail to sentosa..haha..i was so so excited!!Many ppl though,hmmm thats obvious right,cos its a school holiday.. when alighted,i went to change into my sec sch class T^^..Head down to Siloso!! hehex..Thank goodness the sun was covered by the clouds!!yay..there were a few of my classmates who went there as early as 8 plus jus to help us reserve a vollyball court.Great thanks to them^^..left all the foods there, then waited for Junlun to change into his beach wear.we went around sentosa,firstly because we were a little bored..secondly was to go to the 7-11 to check if they sell bottles of alcohol as we plan to stay over-night and drink.haha,sound fun right..but the sad thing was that the both 7-11 in sentosa dont sell!!!!!Zzz,disappointed though.No choice,so we headed back to the beach..i am so bored ,hide under the tent and listen to songs,see the guys play vollyball. after awhile went into the water to had a mini ball game with the guys, found that i had turn into a small kid playing water=.= but its fun..haha Hmmm not a lot of our classmates went ,some bring their friends or boyfriends along..we had out lunch,thanks o, cos my classmate prepare mee, bread,water and etc. We had pizza too!! Haha..Till round 7 plus pm many of them went back le. Alastair,Zac & Rickmond went out of the sentosa to buy 2 bottles of red wine!! ^^ only 5 of us stayed overnight,which was a little sad ..but we enjoy the wine,played games and so on.had lots of fun!!I didnt slp the whole night,everyone woke up and left the place round 7 plus as 2 of them having dance..We had Mac for breakfast..Shared cappy with Alastair & Zac,hmmm so sleepy by then when i reached home..after i bathe, drop onto my bed and went to meet Zhou gong le~~after all, this was our first class bonding out at the beach,looking forward to spent time out with the whole class again !! to conclude,I LOVE MY CLASS!! IQE, my classmates are all sweet and friendly ppl..hahazz shall end here..nitez

18.06.09 smiles=)

2009-06-18T01:16:00.000-07:00

IQE(photo of those who went for the class bonding)=)